good news btw: i fell in love...but...is that really good? the last year has been the worst as some might remember...now i am not even capable of being happy....cuz if i put myself just into it and it s not gonna work out...well i just dont wanna be dissapointed and get hurt....why cant it be just that easy? why do i always fall for those that are difficult? why cant i just find the switch on/off button? Everytime i think about.....i get happy but still there is this huge cloak of grief covering everything....is there no way for me to cut thru it alone?

It's getting weird....somehow....
1. no classes since February
2. Easter Holidays 4. - 20. april....2weeks lectures and then EXAMNS???? how the hell are they going to teach us in like 3 weeks the whole semestre stuff? i am kinda getting nervous.....not just because of the fact that we dont have lecture notes....

Anyways i m kinda getting accostumed to living here...but then i start thinking...well in 7 weeks you r back...5months just isnt the right span of life....nex time...1year or more?